Did you ever think we'd make it?! I had my doubts, but today wraps up 31 Days of Remaining Hopeful in the Face of Hopeless. As I was thinking about how to wrap this baby up, a crazy pressure to end strong paralyzed me. So I showed up to my computer this morning, sat, waited and asked what needed to be shared.
We are entering the sixth month of facing hopelessness in our family. One would think by now, something would have changed, broken through, shifted to a better place, but for us it doesn't seem to be the case. Lord knows I thought things would be better by now. What am I supposed to do amidst the terrible broken record that is my life? Waking up each day to the same monsters, the same pile of poo gets old, you know? I know you know. I'm not alone here. How long can we keep facing hard stuff?
Every.single.time I start to waver in my hope, God returns me to the place He started with me. I can't tell you how many times He personally led me here or sent others to remind me of this place (when they had no idea it was "my" place). Do not fear! Stand by and see the salvation of the Lord which He will accomplish for you today...The Lord will fight for you while you keep silent.
Friends, it doesn't matter what we each face in this life or for how long it drags out, God is with us. He wants to bring about a redemption and glorious work only He can do. I'd rather stand by and watch Him flex His muscles anyway, because what He accomplishes for me, for us, can't compare to my feeble attempts. Hanging on to all we know God to be opens up the door to our seeing more of God than we know of Him. His heart is for us to know Him and believe Him. The circumstances, impossibilities, failures, losses, whatevers we face can move us toward a place of hope because they move us toward Him. He will accomplish for us.
Thank you for walking this month with me, for allowing me to share pieces of my heart and journey with you. Those of you who have reached out to encourage, thank you. Those who've reached out from your own struggles, thank you for trusting me. Those who've been playing the role of prayer warrior, thank you for fighting with us. Thank you all for your time showing up here so consistently. I'd have to keep writing it out even if no one showed up, but it's much better sharing it with you!
I'm not sure how we'll go forward within this space, but I do know I'll be hunting hope and finding beauty in the everyday. I hope you'll be sticking around!
With a honkin' hug,